What’s in my mind right now

Well there’s a few things i got in mind right now. There the feeling that i might even lose some of my friendships with other people but honestly, it might be a good thing too. Then there’s my life at home too. My grandma is not doing so well and i want to see her but I can’t because she’s literally one country away. But I just got this feeling that she will make it through. This month hasn’t been the best for me though, i want to change that.